Tuesday, March 26, 2024

Fucking Medical Insurance

The good news is that I am finally down to only ONE medical claim from 2022 that is in dispute! For...reasons, Edgepark Medical Supply submitted claims for some, but not all, of Maggie's CGM supplies to our insurance company as durable medical equipment with a 50% copay instead of diabetes supplies with a $15 copay. I've spent the last two years trying to get them to fix this. Edgepark blames BCBS, BCBS blames Edgepark, and I keep getting bills I shouldn't have to pay. And I keep calling to explain, yet again, what happened and why it needs to be fixed, only to be told that it will all be resolved in 45 business days. Rinse, repeat. 

But like I said, down to just ONE claim left and then maybe they can stop calling me. And emailing me.

On the other hand, I am utterly flummoxed by our new health insurance. With Jose's new job, we did not have a choice of insurers, but we had a choice of plans, all with Cigna. We made our best guess about how much each plan would cost us, given our particular medical needs. The cheapest seemed to be a high deductible plan where the employer reimburses us for the majority of the deductible. 

I've never had a plan with a deductible, so this was gonna be new. I thought I understood it. We pay the first $8,000 in expenses, of which the employer reimburses us for the first $6,500, and insurance covers whatever exceeds the total deductible.

The first test was picking up prescriptions for me and Jose, our cheap-ass generic blood pressure meds. There was no copay at all. OK, cool? I knew some insurers were not charging copays for (cheap) preventative drugs to encourage people to manage chronic conditions, so maybe this was that.

Jose went to two cardiology appointments that had been set up the year before under the old insurance. They said they would bill him. I'm still waiting for those bills...two months later. 

Then I went for a checkup. I paid the office's estimate before the appointment because there was a discount for prepayment. At the pharmacy afterward, I was charged $3.25 for a clonazepam prescription, necessary for those days when I have to spend hours on the phone calling about health insurance. The $3.25 appeared quickly on the insurance webpage as counting toward the deductible. 

Both Jose and I got MRIs for calcium scores, which are recommended by doctors, but NOT covered by insurance because why would they? Fuckers. But they're relatively cheap by American medical care standards, so $85 to know my heart isn't ossifying was a tolerable price.

I waited some more.

Finally, a claim for my checkup appeared in my benefits portal, and it showed $176.32 paid to the doctor and nothing owed by me and nothing counted toward the deductible. Is it because it was preventative care and therefore the ACA required it be covered 100% without copays? Dunno? If so, why did the doctor's office charge me, knowing I had insurance? And if Cigna paid them $176, where is my $250 prepayment?

More critically, I ordered infusion sets, CGMs, and insulin pump cartridges for Maggie. The CGM sensors should retail for less than $100 each; the sets for about $80/box of ten; the cartridges for another $50/box of 10. We have always gotten all of it from Edgepark for a small copay for three months' worth of supplies at a time. However, trying to meet the deductible, one might expect that I would have had to pay about $900 for sensors, $320 for sets, and $200 for cartridges, for a total of around $1400. The retail prices listed on Edgepark's paperwork are INSANELY higher than those average figures from a quick google search. But WTF? We are going to hit the deductible one way or another, and those internet sites don't take insurance, soooo.... I paid the $2180 and quickly got reimbursed. 

However, the cost hasn't shown up as counting toward the deductible. And we will need another three rounds of those supplies by the end of the year, easily exceeding both the $6,500 reimbursement allowance and the deductible that they're not seemingly counting toward. 

Fuck.

The next thing is insulin. The pharmacy tried to fill Maggie's insulin prescription, but they said that Cigna doesn't cover Fiasp, which she has been using for years. I asked the doctor whether we needed pre-authorization and if could she get it. I've been pinging her regularly, but we don't seem to be connecting on the problem. I am guessing she is assuming the pharmacy is asking for preauthorization, but they seem to think that is not a possibility so maybe they haven't even asked the insurance company? Dunno. 

So I decided I would call the employer benefits people, the customer care team whose job it is to help us navigate this mess, to ask about these two things, and while I was at it, whether Cigna covers the Omnipod insulin pump, which Maggie would like to switch to. 

That was...protracted and ultimately pointless. 

A very nice guy named Ed said he didn't know what to say about my checkup but he would get back to me about it. Then he looped the pharmacy benefit people into the call to ask about Fiasp. (I could have called them myself, but whatever.) A very not-nice woman took all my information, and Maggie's information, then told me that Fiasp isn't on the formulary, which I knew. But she simply would not tell me whether it was covered after pre-authorization because it's not for me, it's for Maggie, and she's over 18, and I would need her permission to call on her behalf. 

FFS. I didn't ask for Maggie's medical history. I asked whether the insurance policy covers XXXX. For anyone at all. Nope. She wouldn't say. She then forced me and Ed to go through their customer service survey, and let me tell you, she did not do well. Lots of 1s out of 5. No, my question was not answered with this call, and no, I would not recommend Maxor+ to other people. 

I guess I can call tomorrow while Maggie is home and get her to give them her permission to ask questions on her behalf. Or I can call again and just pretend to be her. I know more of the answers to their security questions than she does. So then maybe we will find out whether they will pay for her insulin or not. And while we're at it, whether they will pay for the Omnipod, because I now have ZERO incentive to try to save them money by stretching the life of Maggie's Tandem pump if they're gonna be shitty about my kid's life-sustaining healthcare. 

#MedicareForAll

Friday, January 12, 2024

I Miss My Mommy

On a day-to-day basis, I miss my mom. I think to text or call her, like, ALL the time. But some days, I really, REALLY miss my mom.

Today is one of those days. I want to talk to my mom about how much I have ended up needing my kids' approval. And how I will never have it from Maggie.

I will always be a disappointment to her. I will never impress her. 

It is what it is. 

And I know that it's too much to ask it of her. She's not my therapist or my mother. She's my child.

And I know my mom would understand my needing Maggie's approval anyway because I know that she spent the last half of her life desperately hoping that her children approved of her parenting choices. 

When Antonio was a toddler, she was carrying him, and she tripped on her flip-flop on the way to the car and she fell down and took him with her. He might have bonked his head, and he was quite upset. I was startled but not especially worried. My mom stood up as I was picking a crying Antonio up and the look of abject terror in her eyes when she apologized to me was heartbreaking. She was so incredibly scared that I would be angry with her for that little accident, for hurting my baby. I was not the least upset with her. Things happen. But god, the horrible fear in her frantic eyes will stay with me forever. 

My mom was a better mother than I could ever have been. And yet, she was afraid of my opinion of her. I told her she was ever so much better than me, but she didn't believe me. She somehow believed my half-assed, impatient, inadequate bullshit was somehow better than her effortless motherliness.

I never should have had children.

It Was a Stupid Idea Anyway

Just like the rest of my stupid ideas, trying acting was a stupid idea.

Maggie and I auditioned for a play together, and her tepid response tells me everything I needed to know. I really shouldn't bother doing this again.

She got her part.

I didn't get any of the three parts for which I was age-appropriate. If I had been the director, I wouldn't have cast me either.

And I'm not doing this again. 

The false kindness of encouraging everyone who comes out to audition is, in the long run, quite cruel. We are not talented. Just say so rather than wasting everyone's time. 

And now I have to be a big girl and a good mom and be excited for Maggie while I feel crushed and, even worse, stupid for ever thinking I could do this.

Fucking Medical Insurance

The good news is that I am finally down to only ONE medical claim from 2022 that is in dispute! For...reasons, Edgepark Medical Supply submi...